I have been married for 9 years now. It was really though in the beginning becoz we stayed with his parents but I overlooked all of that because I know that im not there for them and that i love my husband dearly. About a year ago my husband cheated on me. It all started with online chatting sites then on valentines day i found slips in his wallet of gifts he bought this lady i never recieved anything. I then stole his phone before i left for work and read all the messages his been sending to her. How he loves her and wishes that he could be with her. It felt like my heart crumble into pieces. I really could'nt work that day. When I eventually confronted him and told him that if he doesn't love me anymore he should've just told me because i can clearly not be with a man who's heart is with someone else altough i love him with all my heart it will be better then to let him go. He swore to me that he was confused and that it was a confused mind that did and wrote all of those things.
I forgave him but everyday i still live with the fear is he still doing it and does he really love me?????